I hope you find the strength to talk to your school counselor as soon as you can. I never knew of that resource when I was in high school and maybe it would have spared me the next 30 years of hiding my depressing feelings. Today we have some many more resources available, and needing help and getting help is so much more accepted!
I think finding some support now will help you build better life-long habits and really enrich your life.
Please know your feelings are ok, whatever they are, but they don't have to be acted on - they are just feelings, not facts, not commands or imperatives, they will pass. Try to find something to smile or laugh about
Hugs & very sincere best wishes,
Lynnwood, Lupus & Sjogren's ModeratorDIAGNOSING-LUPUS & LUPUS-RESOURCES
"Life is far too important to be taken seriously" - Oscar Wilde