Hi Rianna! I'm new to this forum, but I've been on HW for a while now.
I, too suffer from depression and I've read a few of your posts so feel like I'm already getting to know you! :)
One of the hardest things for me was to push myself to do other things. I have heart disease and have had a lot happen to me in the past year, so I could always make excuses for things...and then the depression can sort of 'take hold'. This year I decided after my heart bypass, that I wasn't making any more excuses, cuz the longer I waited, perhaps the less time I'd have to make some choices due to my physical limitations.
My love for birds took over and I now volunteer at a local Pet store and I handle and tame and train exotic birds of all kinds!-and though fatigued from other health issues some days, I still make myself keep going and I'm having a much more rewarding life, doing something extra and something that I love-instead of waiting for things to happen, I'm doing those things!! My next 'thing to do' is I'm volunteering for the Breast Cancer foundation. There must be something you'd like to do, and this costs no money...
So go for it-push yourself a little more...it doesn't have to be 'a job', but something you enjoy so you look foreward to your weekends and instead of being alone, you are making your own life-go for that animal sanctuary thing!-I think you will be very glad that you did! Please let me know what happens.
Hugs, Teri :)