Welcome to our group. First I want to say that you came to a good place and everyone here is just great and understanding and we all have so many different lives soit never gets boring.
There are times in my life when I wondered what the heck I was doing here. I thought all I came here for was to give birth to 2 daughters, be a part-time grandmother and then a so-so wife and then check out. Other times I feel like I am here for myself and my right to love life to the fullest. Unfortunately, being ill and having depression don't make for great bedfellows. They do not compliment one another. I get up in the AM and thank God for another day and go through my day puttering about, cleaning one room at a time and cooking and laundry and playing with my dogs and having them bring joy into my life. My husband is a good man and takes very good care of me. Soemtimes we have to look for the good stuff. It's there if we look hard and long enough. I always reflect on others that have it worse than I and then I feel like a real jerk. Humility tends to make you a believer real fast. Post, read and welcome.