I need support!

  Hi everyone I am twenty-five years old and I have had depression since I was young. I have two daughters and I have been married for six years. I have been fighting depression along time. But recently it has taken a toll on me. It seems like I can't get out of this funk. I find myself hiding away from everybody. I have tried medicine but it seemed it made me meanier and more ediger plus I wanted to sleep all day. I am starting to exercise more and it seems it helps a little. I have tried to talk to my mom about it but she just tells me to get over it and just bury my past. My husband really doesn't understand it. Sometimes I feel like I am drowning and no one can save me. The only thing that makes me happy is my daughters, but it seems like I can't escape my sadness. The most important thing is I want to be there for my girls. I don't want them to grow up and think I did'nt love them. If anybody has any advice for me please post.

Hi Barbra,

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Have you thought about talking to a therapist?  It sounds like you are carrying a lot of sadness and pain. 

I have kept all of my emotions inside for a long time.  Three years ago my body decided that it couldn't "handle" them anymore.  Thats when I found myself in a severe depression where I was forced to get help.  Since then I have been seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist for my medication.

It has been a long journey in many ways but it has been very healing as well. I am still in the process.  I needed to grieve a lot of things in my past that I hadn't allowed myself before.  As far as the meds are concerned you may have to try more than one to find the right match.  All our chemistry is different.

I hope this helps.  This is a great forum.  You will find a lot of great support.

It is difficult to see light at the end of the tunnel.  I know because I too feel as you do.  Remember that you still have family support for you.  That can keep you going.  It is important to tell your loved ones everyday about your thoughts.  Let them know that you are trying to be there for them.  Understand that the emptiness is only temporary.  I know that is what I am trying to tell myself.  Don't hesitate to seek comfort, support, and compassion for your thoughts and feelings to anyone that is willing to help.  Know that you are not alone in the chaoticness and frailty of life!