9 months ago I met the love of my life she loved me back. We dated and loved and then all of a sudden she disappeared. We are 15 her mom took her out of school and put her into a hospital be caused she overdosed. This was shortly after we met. . For months I went with no contact at all with her, had no friends nothing exciting no affection for parents they just ***** and complain like always and say my day was good (lying). I became quickly depressed would quickly come and even faster go. Then my mom lost her job which had devastated her. Her boss lied and told everyone she came to work drunk ( she is a preschool teacher
, well WAS). Christmas passed with no presents or thankfulness of each others company. Soon after Christmas though I got a call from my love, she told me everything:
She was raped as a little child by her dad (Her mom and dad divorced) and she thought of suicide at that young age.
She had eating disorders
Trouble in school
Loneliness until she fell in love with me.
We quickly became stronger together than ever, we were better people together than we were by ourselves. We literally did everything together and be and one. Here's something though, she was so depressed at one time, she told me horrible experiences of her being in therapy facilities over Christmas, being abused and raped and ignored by her dad at a young age. She fought often with her mom but then became close and her mom is very protective. I stopped her from being depressed, I reconciled her heart bringing goodness and hopes and goals for a bright future I brought her back into education, we told each other wonderful thing s and sadness was out of our pictures. She was fighting with her mom and had trouble in school, but I stopped that. I "exorcised" the evil people of her past like her dad and uncle and all the troubles. She was a wonderful healthy girl now. I stop her eating disorder and she did many wonderful things to me that made my life worth looking forward to.then one day she told me her mom called my mom a drunk, she had thought since my dad had drinking problems at times that she was just like him. My mom never drinks!!! And her mom and my love fought intensely for a week. Her mother grew to despise my mother and ( I'm assuming) the same feelings for me ( even though I did so much good to my love). So my loves mom once again caused problems for us. She declared that they were to move to Tennessee by the end of the month. This broke me...
Me and my love went in one last date. She said she would wait for me to rescue her and I told her ill will never stop loving her we talked of running away together and fantasized having sex and spending our lives together. We walked from school to my home without her mom exactly knowing since she had grown to not be fond of my family and her mom and my love had been fighting. Later that afternoon police stormed my home searching
for my love and they stripped her away. Later on I fond out that my loves mom had told my parents that she would come pick her up from my house, but instead call the police to do her work instead. I wouldn't be surprised if she told them disgusting lies to get them to so it. It's been 3 months since then and I thought they moved away. I fell into deep depression
(which I'm still in now). Until one day my mom happens to see them at he store. My love rushed to my mom and hugged her wishing us and me well. Her mom didn't since she apparently does not like us even though my mom did nothing wrong and neither did I. Saw hope suddenly since I found out they did not move away at all. Since then tough it been clueless. Not a peep from her. I cannot get in touch she has no phone never checks email. Her mom is keeping her from doing so. I am so close to going off the deep end because I'm afraid ill never see her again. Her mom might keep us from loving each other again, and that would destroy me. I've never felt love in life until her and no one at school knows how sad and mad I am. I have to pretend to be happy around others. I really want to become important in people's life's again excel at what I'm good at but I just CAN'T DOIT!!! Not with this depression, I have so little friends and people always pick on me like nothing's wrong with me I can't take it anymore. My swim coach yells at me all the time, and my parents are prone to fighting (lately they haven't though) I miss her as well on top of all this and if I could reach my love again, I would reconcile her mom I think I would be able to, but I'm afraid mere mom might not like me still and prevent there form ever being a chance to see my love again. I know where she lives but I can't just go through the front door. There seems to be no way to talk to her. This deep depression
is madness and help is greatly appreciated. I'm afraid .... I think about
it and fantasize the sympathy from it a lot.... Please help sorry it's long. ;(
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