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hey everyone i seemed to have kinda just crashed i dont even know whats going on in my mind anymore i dont know its like so much but i cant figure out a thing my emotions are all racing as well........ my depression has taken over i dont seem to be in control anymore..... n my life has been stopped for awhile i trying to get back on my feet but its just so hard with all this confusion it frustrates me but yet i dont seem too care.... just seeing if anyone else feels or has fealt like this before please write back anything anyone....

Yes, i have felt (feel) this way....... I go from being ok, to being a mess. Depression sucks. It steals life away from you. I hope you feel better............... No one should have to feel like this.

   Hi....I can relate to what you write and just wanted to respond.  I have no majic potion or pill....I am on Wellbutrin, seeing a therapist, and just keep haning on by a thread.  Someone told me to put a knot in the thread and that would help!! No one should feel the way we do and I learned a long time ago that there were things that happen in my life that I would never understand and this is one of them. Just wanted to let you know that you  are not alone. I feel no emotions at all anymore and just go through the motions.  Have been on four other meds and just praying that this one will help.  I try to just find one thing eah day that was better than the day before.

Hello Curt,

You might find some pleasure in doing something physical. Hmmmmm, do you have a relative or know of an elderly person who needs their grass cut or some work done around their home??? Grass cutting is the best because you are being physical w/o having to interact with anyone and you can really see your progess.

Try not to "awefulize" your whole life. Things really can get better. I sure hope you find what you are looking for friend.

Just a thought.

Blessings!

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In His Grip,

Hey Curt..... hope you are feeling better today!! I'm having a bad one today.... but hanging in there. I'll check in later.

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Peace, love, and hope.... Rebecca

thx for your opinions everyone nice too know your not alone n this for AlwaysRosie i used to do yard maitanance for 2 years so ive had my share of cuttings grass n for physical for help i skate board go for walks n for a activity i play guitar but somtimes i just cant seem to do anything
Ciao

Curtis

I know its tough to get moving Curtis. I struggle with that too. I love to hike, but have been trying to recover physically from some problems. *sigh* It's a big vicious circle. Hard to break that cycle but sometimes we really need to push through the barriers. If you 'can't' do that, you really need to talk to your doc or therapist again and get some help. I fear the downward spiral if you are too stuck.

Thinking about you friend!

Blessings!

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In His Grip,

I too can relate to your situation. Early in June I hit rock bottom again. I didn't care about anything for a good two weeks. I mean I was really down so down I was ready to call it quits on everything. I was litterally scared. I was crying all the time and all i wanted to do was stay home and in bed. Its been a couple of weeks since then and I feel like a completely different person than how I was last month. I don't know what triggered my episode but it wasn't fun and it scared me. I didn't trust myself so much that I would carpool to work if I could make it to work. I just didn't trust myself behind the wheel. I don't want to feel that way any more. Anyway, I'm ready to work with my docs on finding the right meds for me. I'm scared about it all but I've been having these "episodes" for years and I'm sick of them. I feel like I'm up right now like I'm fine like I don't need help but I know me to well whose to say I won't have another bad episode a couple of months from now. I couldn't make it to work for a couple of days during that time it still baffles me even today why I got so low. I just remember being in tears one afternoon and looking in the mirror feeling like such a complete failure that I looked myself right in the eye and said I give up. I was ready to end it right then and there but I didn't only because I'm afraid of dying and death I would never go through with harming myself at least I don't think I would but its a thought that's never far from my mind and I don't want to live like that any more.

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