You might find some pleasure in doing something physical. Hmmmmm, do you have a relative or know of an elderly person who needs their grass cut or some work done around their home??? Grass cutting is the best because you are being physical w/o having to interact with anyone and you can really see your progess.
Try not to "awefulize" your whole life. Things really can get better. I sure hope you find what you are looking for friend.
Just a thought.
In His Grip,
AlwaysRosie "We can't control the waves, but we can learn to surf!"
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