Posted 5/25/2013 9:08 PM (GMT -6)
I'm not on any anxiety medication. I may need it but I don't know how to ask without seeming like a drug seeker. I've had a few breakdowns, hidden away in bathrooms today. I shake, skin gets blotchy, can't breath, have racing thoughts, chest hurts, cry all uncontrollably from 5 minutes to an hour. It happens at home and in public. If I feel it coming I just try to hide. I don't want my kids to see me fall apart like that. I don't know if that's even grounds for anti anxiety meds.
I'm just way over my head with everything. I have been trying to put space between me and family but this weekend was both of my kids birthday party. They wanted cousins to come. I rented out a mo vie theater and put it on by myself. Then I wound up stranded, with the kids, at the theater for over an hour. Then stuck at my moms, who wants me to help her move her stuff in, for another 3 hours. No one ever offered to help me with anything except my 71 year old grandmother. I am in so much pain (dislocated my shoulder trying to help my mother move in an entertainment unit) and fibro is so flared and exhausted from hauling kids gifts and cake and ice cream and etc around all day.
Nail patella syndrome, osteoarthritis, complex migraines, eosinophilic esophagitis, major depressive disorder, OCD, and fibromyalgia, IBS
Meds: flovent 220 mcg, flexeril 10 mg, zonisanide 100 mg, omeprazole 40 mg, Cymbalta 60 mg,dicyclomine 20 mg, elavil, 10 mg, Xanax prn, hydrocodone prn.