I am extremely sorry to hear about your Pappy, Rodney and now your mother.
The first few devastating losses I experienced were very hard to take, but I felt like I was being cradled by God. As I would talk to God about the losses, I realized that ALL of us will leave this earth one day and that we are best to keep relationships with each loved one well tended.
You were doing NORMAL childhood growing up. I hope you don't feel guilty for either loss. Each loss requires a grieving process. Then I like to fin a special way to let go. (Like, thanking God for the time I did have with the person).
If you look at the main page for the depression forum, the second topic is "Depression Resources" if you read the second and third post, there are hot line numbers and a web-site. Please go to those resources and find someone from your state to talk to. They may be able to help you find some resources in your area that will be low cost or no cost.
Please let us know how things go. You are dealing with a very large burden and you need someone that will help you learn to shoulder what you need to and to let go of the rest. Letting go isn't forgetting, it is a way of remembering w/o the pain.
Keep us posted sis!!
In His Grip,
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