Hi everyone thank you for your kind and supportive messages :)
I have never been a drinker or taken drugs thankfully!
I spoke with my partner last night and he is going to try and speak to my landlord directly about my cat and sort out some sort of arrangement as he agrees that I wont cope if I give i'm up. I am super lucky that I have my partner as he said last night to me "I will never let you drown, there is always a solution" wise words from my gorgeous man! He knows I love him to bits and he said he can see that I am trying to live a more positive lifestyle and understands my down days. Its hard for him to see some of my family members because of the way they treated me when I was younger but he still stands with me when I want to see them.
We talked and said because I have signed a 12mth lease I will stick it out and then we will move, he wants to buy a house that we can live in and he said I will feel more secure that way as well.
I've decided that if my friends don't like the fact that I would rather go to the movies or dinner and prefer not to drink and go clubbing, Its fine.
I am feeling a little more positive this morning after my talk with my partner last night.
My anxiety is still there regarding my landlord going to my premises while I am not there to have a sticky beak, it feels as if I have eyes on me when I am at home now.
Im with your wife carl, im sorry she had to give up her cat because they are everything! I plan to fight for my little guy im not giving him up.
In regards to the psychologist that was bullying me, she is a nasty person and has caused my anxiety to come back. I know all are not like that but I don't think I will ever have the trust for a psychologist. I agree not seeing the Drs/providers that you work with, that's your personal life and its too invasive for me.