Rea Samantha said...
THANK YOU SO MUCH CARL.
I wish I've seen this forum before. (confused if I should post in IBS or panic anxiety forum) Though my story is about nonsense, the reason I posted here is that of my physical changes in my body after he left. Like weight and appetite loss, nausea, fatigue and constipation.
PS: I dont want to call him first because he might think I'm flirting with him. I dont want to disturb him in his work. Our communication is too seldom because I AM TOO SHY to tell my feelings.
or maybe because I am NOT lovable.
Rea Samantha... everyone deserved to love and be loved.
You don't have to throw yourself at him, or drop a bombshell about
your feelings towards him. Love is a fickled thing, but it will always find a way to let the other person know.
There are many modern technologies nowadays, you can always friend him on facebook, or write him an email just to catch up and touch base be a concern friend. These are all valid actions to do when you two are best friends for your college years. I have a college friend whom I have a little crush on as well. I know we're not suited for each other because we're very different type of people, but we are good friends. And we still communicate 13 years after graduation. So it's not strange for good friends to remain good friends even long after graduation.
As for the relationship part, do let nature takes its course, drop subtle hints, eg. give him special b'day present things that you know he'll really like. Ditto for x'mas. And you can always be his secret valentines. If he likes you, he will reciprocate.
I can confidently tell you that I'm definately not the best person when it comes to conjuring courage to tell someone how I felt about
them, but somehow I managed to find someone who we simply just clicked. Love is a weird thing but very very powerful, as you've already experienced it before. So hang on there, be strong and keep in touch with him if you really like him, but please don't force yourself onto him, it's a turn off.