I'm sorry about
this. I'm sure that this is so hard on you and its difficult for people to understand. It sounds like you are frustrated because there is nothing you can do about
it. The thing you can do though is talk to someone (counselor, therapist) and get yourself taken care of first. She may just think that you are giving her lip service about
wanting to change but if she sees that you want to get better and that you are doing something to help yourself you will be doing yourself a lot of good. She's hurting but not because you intended to do that to her but because she felt abandoned and you are not to blame (its your depression to blame) but you need to get yourself some help. Take care of yourself and keep us updated.
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"If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it" - Mary Engelbreit