I loved the begining of your post. It made me smile!
I am sure my supervisor and the manager do make mistakes. But noone checks up on them. In fact several years ago when I was on probation I contacted our HR dept. in our Home Office. I was basically told they were all behind my supervisor and that doing my best may not be good enough. Sometimes I wonder what all she tells them. To be honest, I believe my supervisor is stretching things. She tells me things but has no proof to back it up. Like she told me Friday that the manager brought some mail to her that I put in her mail folder that clearly were not hers. She told my supervisor she did not bring the mail to me because she was tired of taking mail to me that was not hers. Well, everything I put in her file has her name or adjuster # on it. Well we meet weekly. Friday we met and she said at the end of the 30 days they would all meet and decide on where to go from there. She indicated that I was still making a few errors. She did make a remark not too long ago about wanting my work to be error free. Unless I am God, I dont see that happening.
As far as my t is concerned, I had planned to write her a letter and take to her this next Thur explaining my situation but what if she says no? I cant handle that rejection. It may very well be easier on me to just stop going til I find a job but then I run that risk that I may choose to never go back.
I am losing my temper at work and it is really scareing me. I lose it at home but then noone is around. I will just rant and rave. The only person that has seen me is the receptionist and she got upset with me last Friday for getting so upset. She says I needed to calm down. She is right. I dont want to lose my job because of that.
Sorry for ranting.