Lexapro is an SSRI. SSRI work in a way that keeps the brain chemical, seratonin, from spilling too fast from the brain. So the REAL you can function. I can't tell you anything about the other types of anti-d's because I don't know much about them.
But if you were happy the way you are, then I don't understand why you would come here to post. I think deep down you know that you need something to change in order to function properly.
Don't forget about the county mental health agencies, they can likely help you if you can't afford to go to a private therapist.
I hope you get this worked out so you can feel good again.
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UCTD (Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease), Hashimoto's, Plantar Fasciitis, Inflamatory Arthritis, High BP, GI Inflamation, Diverticuloses
Plaquenil, Methotrexate, Metanx, Synthroid, RX Motrin, Lexapro, Amitriptelyne, Salagen, Lotrel