I haven't seen you for a while and your writings were good but not beautiful because you painted a very different picture of yourself. To me, you are. You are a name without a face here. We all are. I am so sorry you are going through such hard times. We all have that one day or another or many days. I guess it's the way we see things. As for being overweight, I can relate. All my life I was pencil thin. The past 9 years I have gained over 40 lbs from Lupus and meds and lack of exercise. When I got married I weighed 103 lbs. Too skinny. Please don't allow that to come between you and the outside world. I will pray for you today. God bless you.