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Date Joined Feb 2003
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   Posted 8/4/2005 11:53 AM (GMT -6)   
I just feel so messed up and depressed.  I have been searching the different sites on the internet for jobs.  Have applied for a couple.  Sent at least one resume out.  There just isnt alot out there that I am qualified for.  At the moment I can't call any temp agencies and make any appts because when I talked to unemployment on Monday they said they would be sending me a letter telling me when and what time they are going to call me to "interview" me because I was fired.  I have never had to do this before.  They said failure to be here when they call can result in loss of benefits.  They say it will be 4 weeks before I can even get my first check.  How am I suppose to live until then?  There are two things I cannot give up.  One is my Thur. night dinner with the girls.  I will eat light or we will go somewhere with coupons but I have to be around people some.  The other is that I see my t weekly but due to the limits of # of visits I get per year I have to pay for every other one.  I have to take Cobra but have not got the info on that and I am sure it is about 450.00 per month but my meds alone without insurance will be around 700.00, let alone my t appts and right now I am seeing my pdoc fairly often.  We are going to be changing some of the meds I am on I think.  I know she is going to take away the xanax, which I am not at all happy about.  I have been on it since March 2002.  I started it because I asked my pdoc at the time for something as although I love flying, I was taking my first flight since 9/11.  I trust my new pdoc and really like her.  I went in Tue. for an appt. and she forgot to give me some samples so I went back
yesterday to pick them up.  I never expected to see her but she was in the waiting room talking to some lady.  She said when she went to bed Tue. she realized she had forgotten to give me the samples.  She also asked how I was and I told her not good, she asked when I was coming back in and I said the 15th and she said if I need to come in earlier to call or if I needed anything to call.  I have never had a dr. say that to me before.  I don't intend to call her and bother her though.  I just  need to get out of this depression.  I dont care about anything anymore.  I am barely eating at all..  I tried to get my best friend to do something on Sat. since I need to be around people and she said she was busy with another friend and she knew that I wanted to spend more time with her but that was not going to happen.  I guess she is too busy with her boyfriend and her other friend and I dont matter.  We are suppose to go out to eat on Thur. but I have not heard from her.  I have sent 2 emails yesterday and both have gone unanswered.  I know what the problem is.  I lost my job and am very depressed and she does not want to be around a loser and someone who is depressed.  She would rather be around her alcholoic friend.  I guess I dont blame her but it doesnt help the depression.
Sorry to have rattled on.

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Date Joined Jan 2004
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   Posted 8/4/2005 12:02 PM (GMT -6)   
(((Chelsi)))... I am sorry that you are feeling so down. Why don't you do some things to take your mind off of this stuff in the mean time. I know how you feel about the money situation. My husband just quit his job out of the blue because he was tired of working 12 hour days. He didn't tell me ahead of time that he was going to do it (although he told me beforehand that he was "thinking" about it). Now I am the only one in the house making money until he finds another job and we have way more expenses than what I bring home. My quick therapy is usually shopping. Well so much for that!! I have become a big hobby person and it really takes me away from all of the negative thinking and worrying. Maybe look for some inexpensive crafts at your nearest hobby shop. I'll be thinking about you.
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Des (dbab)
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   Posted 8/4/2005 12:51 PM (GMT -6)   
Hang in there. Sending postive thoughts your way!
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   Posted 8/4/2005 2:57 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey Chelsi,

Just want you to know that you are in my prayers sis.

In His Grip,
AlwaysRosie          "We can't control the waves, but we can learn to surf!"
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Date Joined Jul 2005
Total Posts : 20
   Posted 8/5/2005 4:00 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Chelsi,
Sometimes it helps to get everything out in the open. :o)
This forum is a wonderful place.
For myself, there are moments when I feel really overwhelmed and hopeless, but I've figured out that I don't have to be alone to get through it. Sending lots of warm thoughts and hugs to you!

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Date Joined Aug 2005
Total Posts : 5
   Posted 8/6/2005 11:20 AM (GMT -6)   
I had no idea so many other people felt the same as I do.
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