Hi dbab--you're right, I shouldn't have "shot from the hip", as the old saying goes, in responding to CheerDad. It's just that I feel very fragile right now and a little TLC goes a long way with me these days. I feel very alone and no one seems to understand. Yes, I know I should be up front with my doctor, but fear of the ultimate outcome (ECT) has stood in the way.
Your suggestion about finding another doctor ia an excellent one. Trouble is, the town I live in isn't exactly teeming with psychiatrists. (One, to be exact.)I'll spare you a sob story, but I'm not exactly in a position to travel out of area to another one. But your message has enlightened me enough to stand up for myself (I have always been intimidated by him) and ask: "I haven't tried all the anti-depressants available, and I'm clearly not responding to the medication I'm taking now, so why not try another? "
Thank you for the encouragement at a time when it is most needed. Wish me luck. To you, all the best.