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 Sorry things have not gone well for you. Missed reading your posts. Sounds to me like you are on to many medications. Perhaps one is fighting the other. As for no one liking you, my shrink would say you suffer from paranoia. You just think EVERYONE is against you which is part of the paranoia. As for needing people who care, we are right hear. That's what this group is all about. True, some have more issues than others, but we are all basically depressed. Have you tried to turn the tables and being nice to people? That's what I did and you know, I get a lot more respect from them. No one wants to hear about our troubles and sorrows. In fact, they run the other way when they see a person like that. I know. . They say, "Here she comes again, and I don't want to here any more of her problems. So, they run like rats from a sinking ship. It's true. It happened to me. What I did was turn the tables asking them how things were going for them and asking if there is anything you can help them with. You would be surprised at the change of attitude they can have. DO NOT mention anything about your problems. Smile and act like you care because you should. I will filled with such pity for myself that I forgot everyting that anyone else was dealing with. I was so "zoomed in" that I just couldn't see other family members or friends with issues. Once I did and I turned it over to God, hook, line and sinker, Things started to get so much better for me. Always remember this. If you bi**h, they will treat you like a witch. If you smile, they will respect you after a while. If you really really mean it, you can certianly beat it. You can be so consumed with trying to help others that you'll soon forget about you own troubles. God will give you the strength and courage you need, BUT, you have to ask and mean it. If you start to life the life that God gave you and notice others, they will think of you so differently. After all, how would you like to hear someone complain every day, day in and day out???? Food for thought!

thanx for the advice. sometimes I just can't control my emotions and its beyond scary. I wish there was a happy pill. I'm only on Celexa right now & hope it works out. Best of luck with your situation too, I read the post that you got from another person here basically telling you to "buck up" and stop "whining so much" I couldn't believe someone would send such insulting things to another person in pain!