Posted 3/31/2014 7:24 PM (GMT -7)
Hi everyone!, I just want to share my story about my disappointment in the medical field and my health issues I don't know if this is the right place to do it. Everything start ay the beginning of February, I was having a weird feeling that day of a lump in my throat, I didn't knew what is was so I went to check my throat in the mirror and I freaked out when I saw my epiglottis on the back of my throat, that same day I was feeling kind of weird, like the flu symptoms and that feeling there in my thoat but I didn't pay to much attention to it, next day I was trying to eat and I couldn't do it, my throat was getting very tight and this lump feeling was making it worse to eat, it was uncomfortable to do it, the food was getting stuck in my throat and I was feeling more ill, so my husband took me to a walking clinic:
Doctor #1: He checked my throat and laugh at me when I told him I saw my epligottis, five minutes and 150 dlls later he send me home with no explanation of what it was.
The days went by and everyday I was getting sicker and sicker, I couldn't eat solid food at all, so I was trying to eat only liquid food, but I was hungry and worry about this feeling in my throat, I start havind anxiety and panick attacks thinking that maybe it was my epiglottis getting swallow or something like that. One day I couldn't even breath very well,, the lump and my throat was getting tighter and like if something was getting swelling inside of my throat, so my husband took me to a different walking clinic.
Doctor #2 When we got to the clinic the doctor saw me in real bad shape, he took my pressure and it was extremely high, my I wasn't getting enough oxygen in my head, and I was getting a very bad panick attack because of this lump that I was feeling, he have me there in his office for an hour, and he saw also my epiglottis when he took a look in my throat so he told my husband to take me to ER because he thought that it could be epiglottitis and that was a life threating issue, so my husband took me to ER, the people there did an X ray of my throat and did saw any epiglottis getting or any obstruction, so they discharged me and the diagnosed they gave me was dysphagia and send me home.
Days went by and my sickness was getting worse, I felt ill all day long, and week, I couldn't eat nothing, I was getting really bad so I decided to make an appointment with an ENT to check my throat.
Doctor #3 The ENT doctor put an scope in my throat and when he was getting into my health issue he received an emergency phone call, so he took the scope out and when he came back he look at the monitor and told me that he didn't see ny lump or damage in my vocal cords or nothing so he gave me a prescription for omeprazole 2 times a day for one month and told me to come back again in a month.
I went home and still no improvement I took my pills for 4 days and nothing so I was trying to look for a GI doctor after 6 doctors I called because any one wanted to see me with no insurance finally one was able to do it.
Doctor # 4 The GI talked to me for maybe 10 minutes he told me I need an Endoscopy to see if I have any damage in my stomach or GERD or whatever other things so after more than 2 thousand dollar a Dilation of my esophagus he came to me when I was in the recovery room and told me I didn't have anything wrong, not even acid in my stomach! ???? no medication, no ideas or nothing he didn't say anything to me more than that.
So I went home again, days went by and still feeling ill, one day I felt terrible, totally like if I was dying, I wasn't having a panick attack or nothing, just the feeling of death all over me, so I call my husband and I told him that he needed to come back home to see me because I was feeling like I was dying and that day its would be the last day he would be able to see me alive! that bad I was feeling so he came back home righ away and saw me in the couch without moving he hold me and I start crying, I was practically dying there, he saw in a very bad shape so he called the ENT again, they didn't answer our phone calls so we started praying and praying after the 3 day finally the doctor called us back my husband was begging for help, somebody needed to help me because I was eating well I was losing weight like crazy and I was feeling extremely ill, so the doctor told my husband that I needed a barium swallow test, so he said he would call us back with the day for my test. same old, days went by, so I decide to make an appointment with an acupuncturist to see if that can help me to cope with my health anxiety and panick attacks I was having, I went there it didn't help me very well but at least it was giving me the feeling that I wasn't giving up yet.
I went to do on my own a complete blood test thinking that maybe God forsake me I was having cancer or something like that so my test came out to be normal just a little bad things because I wasn't eating well so my body did have enough nutrients but nothing really serious.
I make an appointment with a therapist thinking that maybe what I was having was mental and I didn't want it to end this situation I was living in a bad depression or anorexia because of my difficulty on eating solid foods.
Doctor #4 Therapist, I went with this therapist and she start digging inside of me and everything she did find it was my depression for my unknown illness, I was in a lot of stress, anxiety and panick attack because of this health issues I was experience.
I was fighting my anxieties with no medication at all, I was praying and having faith that maybe something would save me, finally the ENT called us to let me know the day of my test, so I went to do a barium test, and everything came back normal, the nurse told me that they going to give the results to my doctor in 2 days and he would let me know more about my test but so far it was nothing wrong with me.
Again I was in home for days, having an terrible time, my lump was there bugging me every single day, sore throat, difficulty swallowing food, weakness, dizziness, sharp pains here and there, terrible headaches, panick attacks every day, anxiety 24/7 I had the worse times of my life with this, I cried and cried every single day, I didn't knew why I was feeling like this, I was getting very depress and hopeless, all I wanted to do it just die!, I didn't wanted to face another day with this feelings in my body, I was trying to work in my house but I couldn't even function anymore, so my husband decide to look for a Hypnosis Therapy.
Doctor #5 I went to do an Hypnosis to see if they can help me to cope with my anxieties and try to put my lump annoying feeling away, I cant say it didn't work, because it did at least for a day or two!, but the feeling came back again and again.
After all this doctors and losing my hope with the medical system I was so down in the floor so I decide to help myself, one day I was praying so hard to God to help me eat again, I was crying ad crying because I couldn't handle anymore, my husband came back with a double cheese hamburger and I told him that that was an insult I couldn't eat that thing, but God was helping me and I start eating again! I was so happy to received an answer from heaven! it took me a long time but I ate the whole thing! so after that I was eating more and more little by little, but at least I was eating, any doctor was there to help me, any one call me to see how I was doing or nothing, they just took my hard earnest money did there job with those tests and that was it!, so I was there on my own fighting for whatever I was dealing with, some days were ok and some others were so horrible, I was very weak, and tired, everyday, my whole body was shaky, my headaches my sore throat everything was bad on me, and still I was crying every single day.
All I wanted was answers from doctors to tell me what I was having why I was feeling so ill, why??, any one of them told me not even that I was having anxieties and everything maybe was related to my emotional issues or whatever, My depression was so bad, it was days that I didn't want to even take a shower or nothing, I was getting so obsess with my health that the only thing I wanted to do ut was looking for answer with my symptoms on internet, my husband was getting very upset about this situation, he was fighting almost every day, this wasn't the women that he married, this person its somebody else, and I can tell that he is tired of me and my health issues. So again I was getting super ill one more time and I was crying because I was in so much pressure with my health that he took me now with an internist doctor
Doctor #6 Th internist doctor told me I need to do an ultrasound of my thyroid to see if my lump was related to it, so I did it. I went to see hin again, and he did all kind of tests, took some blood , did an EKG, and told me that my results in my thyroid ultrasound came back normal, nothing bad in that area. ???? so what I have, he didn't knew, so at this moment im waiting for my results of my blood test and see what he have to say.
Its been a hell of a trial in my life not knowing what I have or why I feel so ill everyday, the lump in my throat its getting bad again, now every morning I woke up with a sore throat and my neck its sore too, the pinchings in my top of my head, the cold sores im having in my lips, my lymp node in the left side of my chin hurts, and sometimes my face in the left side feels like numb, my stomach in the left side hurts and I feel pinching feeling somewhere there, my chest hurts, I cant barely eat without feeling the food in my throat, my nose gets so stuffy, my weakness still here, I feel like im not me anymore, mu eyes hurts. my whole body shakes, I have this horrible stomach aches, and sometimes I feel like the back of my head its pinching and the back of my neck too! I have a lot of mucus in my throat, my muscles aches, I got low fevers sometimes 96,7, my nerves are terrible right now, I just don't know what to do! my marriage its falling apart because of this situation, im depress every single day, I cry every single day, im very scared of me right know, and im so sad because any doctor was helping me, they just took my money without helping me or at least telling e which direction I should go, By the way y ENT hasn't call me to let me know about the barium test result isn't that funny! 3 weeks and nothing I called hin 3 days ago and they told me he would call me back and of course they don't care! so yeah, any doctor did something for me.. and know I here waiting for something good to happen to me, who knows if that day would come...
Oh and I forgot to mention that my therapist after I called her to cancel my appointment because I couldn't afford any more she got so mad at me and she told me I have to do another appointment I told her no because I cant and I would call her later if I can save some money and she told me nope, I have to make another appointment she gave me the day and push me to make the appointment so I ending up not going and days later she left a message on my phone just to tell me that she's going to send me a bill, because she couldn't believe I give up on her, wft! and other weird things she said! oh my! my luck with all this doctors was very, very bad! =c
Thank you for listening to me, it makes a big difference in my life at this moment knowing that maybe still good people in this world and maybe some day I would come back and be the healthy and happy women I used to be...