Hi, Kat and welcome to depression,
Wow, that sounded stupid...welcome to depression like you were arriving to a party or something. Anyway. sad to say that depression is a very real illness with very real symptoms. A lot of people say, "What's you're problem, what do you have to be depressed about"? They haven't a clue. Who know's, maybe they are even suffering from depresion and just don't know it. Neither here nor there. If your depression is causing you sleepless nights, strange appetite habits, and you just feel out and out crappy, then you and I and just about everyone else on this forum have something in common.
Kat, I am sorry that you are suffering from depression and it is something we have to learn to deal with. Each person is suffering from depression for different reasons. It's not fair, but either is life sometimes. I have been on and off the boards for about a month going through my own emotions and I decided this AM that I was going to have a better attitude and try to be helpful instead of down in the dumps. Everyone here is wonderful but there are times that we tend to "disappear" for a while. I think that's because we are dealing. It doesn't mean that no one cares. There are no cliques' or private groups. We all help one another and the best medicine is just knowing we are here for eachother. I have had to learn that others have more issues than I and to help is just as good are getting help. Being a "newbee", you will learn that in time if you perservere. As I have said so many times, we are names without faces. No one judges you on what you look like or if you have your stature in a community. That has no consequence here. We care about one another. Please feel free to post whenever you feel low or want help and compassion. You will have friends here. Taking a hiatusfor a few weeks has been good medicine for me. It made me realize that there is more to life then feeling sorry for myself!
There is no such word as can't. Can't simply means wouln't. Grab as much as life as you can. Future is a long way away for those who don't believe. Don't build a foundation of life on sand. It will take it away with the tide. Love a little more, be unkind a lot less.