Ugh will life ever get better????

I kind of had a crapty day and am feeling down in the dumps. I really miss my momma and wish God did not take her away from me I really need her here right now.I can not wait until next summer because I am supose to go to a disabled sleepaway camp one is in elfred nc and one is in gainsboro tn right now am looking more towards the gainsboro one it is cheaper and looks nicer on the web site if that counts at all. Noone has really signed my guestbook much and that has me a little upset too cause I emailed like 50 people about it and like 5 signed it but thats ok. Life stinks. Hopefully things get better soon. Jenny told me today she is going to our halfsisters for thanksgiving and whenever ericka calls here she always asks for Jen never says hi to me or asks how I am doing so I refuse to ask for time off to go with her. Maybe next year I will go. Hopefully I can make plans with my friends Teddy and his wife Jackie from work for Thanksgiving so I dont end up spending it alone which would really stink! Momma and I always spent all the holidays together. Jen says she will be home for christmas definately. Maybe I should tell her how I feel but I know I stress her out cause she told me that the other day when she got mad at me and I just really want to leave her alone most I can. I know me living with her is hard on her at times but hey it aint no picnic for me at times either! Like the saying when life gives you lemons make lemonade. Does anyone have a 20 gallon picture so I can make some lemonade with these lemons :emcry:

Sorry if I have dampered your day. If you do not want to talk to me anymore I would completely understand.

Love & Many Hugs, Jessica

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Post Edited By Moderator (CheerDad (Randy)) : 8/16/2005 11:25:04 AM (GMT-6)

I can really relate to your post but there is one thing you need to know. If others don't respond, it's not cause they don't like you or know you. I had to learn that the hard way. Now instead of writing a novel, I KISS! (keep it simple stupid)! I say what's on my mind and that's it. Some members get bored with long posts and if you have something that will take time to read, put (lonk) in the subject line. Just cause they read the post, doesn't mean they will reply. I also had to learn that some members just don't know what to say, so they say nothing at all! HEY...I am finally making sense!

"Lefty"