Sending you some kind thoughts MindsEye. You put your thoughts into words very well. I hape you have a therapist or counselor to show a copy of the above post too. It sounds like you are on the downward spiral and I strongly encourage you to get the help of a doctor or therapist. Most of us who have done both are very happy that we sought help.
In His Grip,
AlwaysRosie "We can't control the waves, but we can learn to surf!"
UCTD (Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease), Hashimoto's, Plantar Fasciitis, Inflamatory Arthritis, High BP, GI Inflamation, Diverticuloses
Plaquenil, Methotrexate, Folic Acid, Synthroid, RX Motrin, Lexapro, Amitriptelyne, Salagen, Lotrel (Centrum Silver, B12, B6, Calcium+D,)