Hello to all of you, I am new to the depression area, normally I stick to the chronic pain area. I am suffering from 10 years of chronic back pain, and as of late I have been through quite pile of un-needed spiritual testing. I've had depression since 1998, I wasn't really depressed before that. I had been sad here and there before. My depression was more anxiety in the past few years, and it's back to depression, only getting worse now. I don't really know what to do anymore. But I'll go over some of what's going on in my life, and I hope to hear from a few friendly faces around here.
Ok, in feb 2003, I lost a child, and in dec 2003 I lost another child(due to miscarriage). I have been struggling financially, and prettymuch in every way, creating with my fiance and I, then finally my fiance(to be married this month) left me because I am too depressing to be around. And now I'm more depressed than ever. I am having a hard time with depression, and with my temper now. I don't really know how to handle anything anymore. I am extremely co-depentent on her, and I don't know what's going on anymore with me. Since 2001 I have suffered from insomnia, and have on a number of sleep aids and I finally have that figured out as to what to use for that.
*For my back pain, I am on Fentanyl(50mcg), and Vicodin(20/650mg) for breakthrough pain.
*For my depression/anxiety I am on Wellbutrin XL 300mg daily, and Xanax 2.5mg as needed.
*Soma 2600mg for insomnia, and reduced muscle pain when I wake up.
I believe I have covered most of what I wanted to cover prior to typing all this, so if anybody has any questions, please ask. If anybody has any advice on coping with the loss of loved ones, please help me.