Sometimes I feel like I was born to be unhappy. Just when I think things are okay something bad happens. Did God make me this way? Am I miserable and unhappy on purpose?
I know this is a terrible thing to think but...it's how I'm feeling.
I'm a failure at life. Had to leave college, crashed my car this morning, I truly suck at life. Maybe this is my purpose in life. People see a loser like me and feel better about
themselves. I probably deserve all this crap. I'm just really tired of feeling so empty,alone, and sad. I keep trying to be optimistic but I'm running out of stamina. I hate myself. And I'm tired of screwing everything up. I feel like everyone would be better off with out me here to screw things up...but I would never kill myself. Not enough guts. I'm just getting really tired, therapy isn't working. I'm just at a point where I don't feel much. I can't tell someone how I feel if I don't know, if I can't even feel it. I just really hate myself.
Nothing makes me feel better anymore, I'm just kind of here.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 5/1/2014 4:06:35 PM (GMT-6)