Hello Sunny ........
First ... this is NOT to minimize your health issues. If anything, it is to hopefully allow you to feel that some of your issues can be felt or understood - at least in part.
Someone below had mentioned about constipation and diarrea both - preferring one over the other. My G.I. system, as well as, my kidney functions have both been compromised by chemotherapy. For 23-months, I have been on a daily cycle of either constipation or diarrea.
The diarrea cycle does make it difficult, if not impossible, to go out to do things that need to be done. I refuse to take Imodium daily for the fear of my system becoming used to that med - then no longer working!
Your G.I. problems are undoubtley worse - maybe much worse.
My cancer, a few years ago, also blocked my kidneys ... so kidney failure was an issue for me several times being hospitalized. For close to two years, the kidneys are semi-functioning by way of a nefrostomy tube (and bag) for the right side ... and an internal kidney stent for the left side. I think that allows me to at least approach your feelings of despair at times.
Again ...... no intent to minimize here. This is just an effort to ask you to find some hope in your daily life - no matter how small it may be. We all are stuck with some lousy things on our table at times ..... hope you do find some comfort at times.
Rob & Gizmo