Posted 8/18/2005 10:44 PM (GMT -7)
I'm a 17 year old senior in high school. I've been suffering from major depression and anxiety disorder since I was 12. I've been on anti depressants since I was 14.
There was a time when I first started taking medication where I felt like a million weights had been lifted off of me and I was confidently able to say I was happy and satisfied with the life I was living. But that happiness only lasted a few months and ever since, I've been struggling day after day with no relief from my nearly unbearable sadness.
I've been on just about every medication, I try to exercise as much as possible, I eat well, I practice mental exercises everyday and I discuss everything with my therapist desperately trying to create joy in my life.
I try to find people I can really talk to that understand my situation with depression and anxiety, but no one seems to get it. I find myself curled up on the floor sobbing uncontrollably and feeling terrified that Ill never beat my depression.
Any advice at all would be nice but really I'd just like to hear from people who really understand. It's hard to maintain hope after each year but I need to know that somehow I"ll be OK.