Welcome to depression site and I am sorry that you are having these unsettling feelings. A drastic move is a very traumatic thing in it's own, along with everything else you are dealing with. Leaving our surroundings is like Linus giving up his blanket. It's had to part with it. I can relate, as I have moved from Jacksonville Florida almost 4 years ago after living there for over 32 years. The move was for a better job for my husband and better medical care for me. I have an illness that can't be cured but I stopped allowing to control my life. It took me a very long time to deal with that and when I did, I finally realized that it was controlling me. Now there is something wrong with that picture. I live in Vermont in the mountains far from civilization. I have no car because I have seizures. There are very few people where I live as they mostly farm and have acres and acres between ranches. I am basically home 24-7-365 and at first I thought I would go nuts. Than the seizures started and I figured out that the Lord was trying to tell me that was the reason I couldn't go from here to there on my own. I rely on my husband who is a good and very attentive man. As for your "Hippy" ways, that is no reason for you to feel strange. We are all strangs. When I do get out, I look at these people and believe me, they look strange as I must to them. They are very, "layed back" and kinda country. I, on the other hand, wear makeup, nice clothes and fix myself up when I get out. Now to them, I am strange. When I first went to the salon to get my hair done the stylist asked me, "You're not from here, are you"? I asked her why she asked and she said I was to "uptown" for this area. I laughed! I have addapted fine.
I think the thing you need to try to do is make yourself fit in. The longer you isolate yourself, the harder it will be to get out and socalize with others. People shouldn't be judged by the way they look or dress or whatever. Unfortunately, we live in a society where that's not the case. We have to rise above it and beat the odds. You came to this site and that is a good first step. Read the posts and post as much as you want. All the members are very helpful and need love as much as we give. I'm glad you're here and hope you can find some solice in this group.