Congratulations on kicking your eating disorder! That's something to be really proud of.
I was "officially" diagnosed with depression in December 2004 though I suspect I have had it a lot longer. It runs in my family, my mom has had it since her early twenties. I also suffer from Chronic Daily Migraine Headaches, which propogates the depression.
At the height of my depression I was numb. i didn't care. My husband could leave, my family could leave, I could get fired, I just didn't care. As I emerged from my depression I started to cry at anything and everything. I was so happy, my husband thought I was nuts, but I was so relieved to feel things again. It had been so long since I had felt everything, I had been completely shut down.
I started seeing a psychologist who specializes in chronic pain and depression and she has helped me significantly. The first thing we did was set a routine - which I fought tooth and nail. So regardless of whether I slept or not the night before I got up each day at the same time, I showered and got dressed and had breakfast. I would get some exercise (go for a walk usually), I would study, visit friends, eat regularly scheduled meals and then at night go to bed at the same time each night. She gave me some information on proper sleep hygiene.
I was the worst for sleep habits, I like to watch TV in bed, I could spend all day in bed. Her recommendations included turning the TV off 1/2 hour before bed. Never watching TV in bed or doing anything but sleeping in bed. Carrying out activities conducive to sleep during the 1/2 hour before bed. I read and drink warm milk.
Sorry this is so long. I'm trying to tell you I've been there and reassure you you're on the road to recovery. These are the tools I used to get further along. My routine is now a job, an easy job, but still a job.
PS Start keeping track of the things you do each day (i.e. getting up, getting dressed, going out), when you suffer from depression those are the things to be proud of.
Coquitlam55 (aka Nicky)
"The world is full of suffering, it is also full of overcoming it." --Helen Keller
I try and remember this each day I have a headache that I'm not sure I can overcome.