Well it has been a hard 5 weeks, I found out my daughter might have autism. She wont have a professional dianosis until 8 Dec. I have been depressed for the entire time. My relationship with my wife has gone down hill. I have a hard time focusing on anything. I have my good days but most of the time I wake up in the middle of the night and can go back to sleep. I have not been eating well and have to remind myself to even drink water. I feel so guilty about my daughter, I can hardly be in the same room as her sometimes. I love her so much but if I watch her too long, I see some of the signs and my stomach knots up and I feel dizzy. I dont know what is wrong with me. I went to a theripist, and she said "It was normal"...Maybe for a few days but over a month...No way. I am ruining my marrage and relationship with my daughter. I dont what to do. I cant stop the way I feel. Sometimes I wish I could just run away. That would not help at all. My family needs me. I am at my wits end. My wife wont even talk to me about it anymore. Without an outlet, I get worst. Is there any chat community out there where I can let everything out. When I do that with someone. I get better. Even doing this helps. If anyone can help let me know.
Thank you for listening to me.