Welcome to the group. Hope you find comfort here. Depression is such a complex illness and a lot of times it's a choice of trial and error. I believe that a patient should try one med at a time. If it's not working, go on to another. If you are taking 3 different anti-depression drugs, they could even be clashing one another. I'm sorry about your medical condition, but believe it or not, 70% of the people on this board have a physical illness. That is what causes my depression, which I can't do the things I used to do. I was a very active, vibrant person. I loved working in the yard and fixing up my home like painting and wall papering. Now, it's a chore for me to cook dinner for more than 15 minutes of a time on my feet. I have been through the anger to the sorrow to even blaming God, but He is the reason I can go on day by day. I can't work so I am on SSD. My husband does just about everything for me. If he wants to take me out, he knows my limitations. I don't drive because I have seizures and even though I haven't had one in almost a year, I still woulnd't want to put anyone in harms way. (I have Lupus, Fibro, epilepsy, diplopia and degenerative bone and joint disease). I make the best of it. I think of others that are suffering, like the people from the devistation of the Hurricane and I humble real fast. Take it one day at a time. Force yourself to get up, get dressed, fix yourself up even if you're not going anywhere. I started that about 8 months ago and I felt so uch better. I will hold thoughts for you.
There is no such word as can't. Can't simply means wouln't. Grab as much as life as you can. Future is a long way away for those who don't believe. Don't build a foundation of life on sand. It will take it away with the tide. Love a little more, be unkind a lot less.