I have had a chronic illness since I was 5 and I am 45 almost 46 now. Much of what I have gone through these past 2 years is uncovering the unreleased anger or more like unhealthy release of anger related to me suppressing my feelings associated with living with a chronic illness. Therapy is a great place to start. It was there that I started realizing that I never faced the issues of my illness. As you open up and develop a spirit of trust with you therapist, that is when the real healing begins. If that doesn't happen with this therapist, don't be afraid to try a different one. I went through 3 before I found one I felt I could open up and reveal all the "ugly" parts of me I have hidden from the world and myself for all these years. God bless you as you start this journey. It is a difficult path, but well worth the travel.
I am new here and have never really talked publicly about my depression. I just recently made the descision to go to therapy, but I wasn't comfortable talking about things that I have internalized all my life.
I don't really know what to do... the therapist says my dpression most likely comes from my traumatic childhood.. she never even acknowledged that i have been living with cfs and fibromyalgia among other ailments for bout 7 years. She seems to think I have unreleased anger causing my depression.
Is this the typical way of dealing with depression?I have been on celexa, wellbutrinxl, and now i am on cymbalta. Nothing seems to help much. the meds seem to make me feel numb, void of emotion. I don't want that. But I can't be sure I want to delve into the dark crevices of my memories to confront anger I don't know I have.
Any suggestions on what I should be doing?I have been unemployed for 6 years too. with the chronic pain and fatigue.. I barely keep up with daily chores at home.
I hope this isn't too long.. I am new a tthis. Thank you any suggestions.