I am so glad that my dr. appt is tomorrow. Maybe if she starts me on meds tomorrow than in a month I will be feeling much better. Today I feel as if I am a burden to everyone and that no one cares if I'm here or not. Having problems with the neighbors, and the kids keep asking the hard questions, "Why can't we play with their kids?" ect, ect. I am so tired of fighting the good fight. I look at the people on this board and they are dealing with much worse problems than mine, yet I can't seem to get my head out of my butt and act like a normal person. WHY???? I am so sorry that I just whine and complain all the time. But I want to go somewhere warm and quiet and curl up in a ball and just sleep it all away. Meanwhile, I am sleeping away the lives of my beautiful children that mean so much to me. Why, when they are my everything, do I find it so easy to neglect them? Why can't I just get up and do it for them? Because I am worthless. That's the only explanation I can come up with.
Just needed to vent. I hope that doc can get me on the road to recovery so that I can begin to be a help to my family and others on this board instead of always being the one to reach out, crying. Thank you for listening.