Posted 9/11/2005 7:38 AM (GMT -7)
I don't know where to begin...I am 28 years old, I had night terrors from age 1-8, migraines since age 6, Depression as far back as I can remember- I was diagnosed with phychotic depression as a teenager- I am still looking for answers. I now have a partener and a 4 year old daughter. I have been up and down, mostly the latter, since a major bout after my daughter was born. I now use all of my energy keeping her healthy and happy (not an easy task) I am here for support, since I can't bring myself to go to group therepy - this is better for me. Here, I don't feel like such a freak! I have so much to be thankful for ~ why can't I just enjoy life, instead of always just trying to get through the days with little hope that one day I will be happy? During the most recent breakdowns the only thing that kept me alive was my daughter ~ I can't leave her, she needs me. Sometimes that is almost worse - like the fantasy of suicide can no longer relieve pain -like I am doomed to have this feeling forever with no real escape...
Sorry for being a bummer - life is hard for me.