Hi there sadpixie!
I am new here also and as of yesterday reached my breaking point, which is how I wound up here. I have been suffering from depression for a few years no and am on 30mg of paxil but I don't find it does anything. My doctor upped it from 15 to 30 about a month ago but I still haven't noticed a difference.
My ex ended our relationship of 10 years about a month ago and since then it has gotten MUCH worse. Basically she just couldn't deal with me anymore. It hurts REALLY bad because she was my best friend and now I feel like I have no one to talk to. We are still friends but I don't feel as though I can talk to her the way I used to as we are not together.
Over the last 10 years we had been through pretty much everything together. The birth of our nephew and godson, her sister getting ill and passing away from cancer, my cousin killed in a car accident, my brother in laws cocaine and alcohol addiction and so much more which makes it hard for me to understand why she is unable to support me when I am down.
For the last week, I thought I had a plan. I was going to buy another house and get out of my parents basement, but to make a long story short, I was lied to and that fell through yesterday. At this point I just don't know what to do next and am not sure I can handle any disappointment. I just don't know what to do.