I am certainly not a doctor but why do you feel responsible for everyone else?
A. You're a woman, we do that
B. You're a mom, we do that
C. Are you a nurse? They do that!!!!
I feel responsible and guilty about so many things. Almost all of them are out of my control. I'm sad to say you sound exactly like me. I was a teacher for years, never felt good at it. I hate confrontation, my partner thrived on it. Guess who won? My husband is wonderful, I love him very much, but he can be overpowering. I tell him he yells, he disagrees. He is just forceful. He has gotten a lot better, he has seen how I just crumble. A lot of it is just my insecurity about ecerything, NO self esteem, and my inability to stand up for myself! My kids are adults now and they turned out great. I also felt guilty about dicsiplining. (sp? and I'm a teacher!!).
I apologize for everything, feel like it's my job to make sure everyone else is happy even at my own expense. I feel like a failure, I feel stupid, I feel like I have faked my way through life.
Obviously I cannot offer advice, just the knowledge that you are NOT alone. I just started taking meds and seeing a therepist. I hate going and I don't know why. He's a nice guy, beats me.
I also suffer from extreme anxiety (gee, I wonder why?)
I know you know this, but before you can take of your kids, you MUST take care of their mom. (I give good advice, I just can't follow it myself!)
What a long winded speech! Sorry!!