Thanks for your support and kind words everyone.
I hate feeling like this. Emotional pain is just not my thing. I can’t cope with it. I don’t know how to handle it. I’m just lost and in a mess. I just want to stay in bed under my covers forever. I wish if all this was a dream
Michele, I only downloaded back apps on my phone this morning. I will check my contacts and message you.
Forgot to mention, he set up my whatsapp on his phone last weekend so see who was messaging me. Can you believe that?
AngelLisa, I’m soo sorry for what you went through.
I agree. It was not the first time he was physically violent. He hit me twice before, but I just kept it to myself. He was always verbal but I hid it from everyone. I don’t know why. I always tried to look for the good in him, and just forget and ignore the bad. This time, he was more abusive.
pitmom, I’ll check out that movie again. I saw it years ago. I can’t recall it fully.
Many times previously I kept asking myself why am I staying with him and he treats me this way. Yes, I do love him but if he loves me he wouldn’t treat me this way. I just could not and still cannot understand why I stayed or why a person in this situation stays.
This is not the first time he broke my heart.
After the last time, he apologized and then days later he gave me the engagement ring. I have to give him back as well as some other things.
I too believe in karma. But sometimes it just seems like we have to go through the pain while they are out there happy. It’s not fair!
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