So I apologize in advance for the incoherence of this post but I've steadily noticed my memory is getting cloudier by the day. Unless I make new experiences, any past memory, it could be as close as a few days before, becomes a blur and I can't feel the nuances, the tone, the joy that I felt during that day or memory. It is weird because this happens with things that I have recently done or experienced, as well as my most cherished past memories. I don't know if I can attribute this to the Lamictal. I could be vitamin deficient but my blood tests have come up normal aside from thyroid (should I request for doctors to test for specific deficiencies?).
I am having trouble finding words for things, my train of thought will just dissipate in mid air as I am speaking, and the other day I missed lab which is completely out of character for me. I had an exam that day which I finished early, and for some reason I forgot what time lab was. I thought I had a long break so I went to the store in-between but by the time I got back to school, lab was already over. I also get lost walking around corridors and hallways even though I have frequented them many times before.
I am too young for this to be happening. I hardly feel like doing anything anymore because all the color has been dulled and the haze is back. I've been fighting so long and now if it's not depression it's something different. I think I am getting depressed again because things that used to keep me going just don't seem worth it anymore. Everything just blends together. What can I do?
Post Edited (Reysone) : 6/4/2015 5:06:26 AM (GMT-6)