Posted 7/9/2015 8:19 AM (GMT -7)
I'm normally in the anxiety forum, but this post is close to my heart.
I'm dealing with a toxin trying to work back into my life. This person is never completely out of my life, but I keep them at arms length.
With my upcoming medical procedures, this person wants to "be there for me". Hmmm I've heard that before, and then found it wasn't me they were trying to take care of.
Just having this person in town, causes me to panic, and get physically ill. Having this person at the hospital, and then in my home "taking care of me" is scaring me to death. I have so much going on, and this "issue" that I normally keep in it's own little box, is trying to pry open the lid.
I'm in a very sticky situation with this, because there are other people who worship the ground this person walks on, so it will stir up a hornet's nest if I'm not open to this offer of aid. I know though, that it is just another way to make things about them, and to cause me grief.
Those who pray, please lift me up, and help me find the strength, and the tact to keep the exposure to a minimum.
Osteoarthritis, bursitis, Cervical Disc Disease - pinched nerves, Raynaud's, migraines, severe anemia, severe allergies, anxiety & PTSD