I have been searching for a medication to relieve my depression, but I cannot find any that would not cause me to have more problems.
I also tried trazodone again, but it caused me to have many horrible side effects.
Every medication that I have read about
and/or tried has bad side effects and/or interacts with my other medications, and I'm feeling frustrated because of that.
I cancelled the appointment that I had with a therapist on Monday so that I could see a psychiatrist, but now I feel that there is no point in going to see them since they will probably just tell me about
the same medications.
Also, I still have depression, anxiety, panic disorder, back pain (from surgery in 2011), and neck/trapezius pain (from a work injury in 2006), so I can't get out of the house, and I keep cancelling my appointments with the therapist as a result.
I wish that doctors and therapists could go to their clients instead of their clients going to them, since I am in a rut, and I can't figure out how to get out of it, so that I can go see them.
I really don't know what I should do.
I want to live a normal life.
I want to be able to do things with my family and go places with my husband.
Because I can't do those things I feel like it's pointless for me to live, and I think "Is this all there will ever be to my life?"
There are many times when I become so depressed that I don't want to talk to anyone or post on this site.
I'm trying my best to do what I can, but it feels like I'm not getting anywhere.
I feel hopeless.
Is there something like a miracle for depression?
That would be nice.
Take care everyone, and God bless you all.