Life certainly has a way of kicking us when we are down, doesn't it? I am so sorry you are having to make the decision about your beloved cat. I did this not too long ago with our dog. It was so hard for me to do this, and I could not quit crying. I also knew that no matter how hard it was for me to make that decision, it was harder for my dog to live in pain. He was suffering from cancer and did not deserve to live in such pain another day. I took him to the vet and she let me stay with him. I held him in my arms and cried, but I knew it was the only decision I could make for him. If your poor cat is suffering, please know that if he could talk to you, he would beg you to put him out of his misery. I know that my dog knew how much I love him and I know your cat knows how much you love him.
The longer you suffer from depression the harder it is to get out of it. I have suffered from depression and anxiety for over 4 years now, and I was to the point of believing I wasn't meant to be happy. Sleeping all the time is a definite sign of depression. You have been suffering too long and need to get help immediately!! You are too young to live your life in this state. If you are not comfortable going to see a counselor, then please at least make an appointment with your primary care physician and get some medication. I have been taking Paxil 40mg x1/daily. In addition, I take Xanax .5mg x4/daily. These medications have really helped me so much. I never knew that I could be happy...and I am now. Don't get me wrong, I still get sad, but sad is a normal emotion--depression is not.
Coming to this forum was a great step for you to take! I do not normally post in this forum, but I saw your post and wanted to let you know that I, too, care about you. I hope you continue to post and receive the support from these wonderful people.
These forums are really nice to come to, because you are not judged. Nobody can see you. They don't know who you are. You can post your feelings and not have to worry about "bumping" into one of us on the street. So, at the very least, please utilize this wonderful tool! Anyone of us would be more than happy to meet you in the chatroom anytime you need to talk. You can email me anytime by clicking on the envelope icon under my name on the left hand side of this post.
Please know that we all care and we all know what you are going through! We are here for you Erika!
You are in my thoughts and prayers!