Over the past few days I have become increasingly unstable and depressed. I've long wondered if I had something wrong with me where anxiety was concerned and it has shown up recently in the form of panic attacks and social anxiety. It is getting ridiculous to deal with the panic attacks and the depression. I have been trying to find work and ended up having to quit a job over this. I have never had such a problem being around people and this anxiety stuff really scares me, literally. Even doing simple things sometimes seems overwhelming. My girlfriend does not understand or maybe it is she does understand and feels helpless. Either way I know I am burdening her down. I think she thinks I am just lazy at the heart. She was getting panic attacks too about
a year ago, but I haven't heard anything about
it much since then so I wonder if it goes away. Will this go away? I know the depression is here to stay and at least I know how I can start meds on that again, but I am scared that this anxiety won't go away. This crap is frightening me into the house, if that makes anysense, and I feel pushed into a corner.
As much as I do not want to use medication again, I will talk to my doctor about
going back on Lexapro. It worked the best of what I've tried. The thing that gets me in this is that I feel I really can't win. I felt on meds that I was a different person, but when I go off them for a while to try to feel who I am again, I fall apart. I wish there was some other solution then medication, but I think I should get back on it again.
Until I see my doctor I ask this friends:
How do you deal with life when things get like this? What do you do? Is there a natural remedy that anyone has found that works good? How do you deal with the shaking-frightened feeling toward life?
Post Edited (MindsEyeOpen) : 11/8/2005 9:17:00 AM (GMT-7)