Sorry your having such a hard time right now.
Your hubby has another big problem to deal with . . . alcohol. I hope you are making a plan for what kinds of things he needs to agree to before you get back together. One thing should be a drug/alcohol assessment and his agreeing to follow a counselors plan for dealing with that. Another thing is to find out what's got his attention on the internet, which could be another clue for counseling. I would expect him to agree to counseling for depression as well and you might want to rethink your belief about anti-depressant meds. They can be key to pulling out of depression.
We don't think a thing about it when a diabetic needs insulin. With depression, our brain chemistry is usually lacking something and the meds help us retain those needed chemicals. Please consider supporting his use of anti-depressants should his doctor recommend them. . . and he should see a doctor as well.
I hope you two are able to get things worked out. I hope you will keep us updated too.
Blessings to you friend!!!
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