Recently I met someone that I worked with and I felt good energy from him. He quit working there to pursue another career and to deal with huge life changes. After he quit we started to date right away it was not a taboo anymore.
He was clear about
his life situation from day one and always told me he could not offer a serious commitment emotionally he had his own life change going on. I always knew that but he continued to see me and it was very clearly passionate and sweet and wonderfully ideal. I did not ever feel up and down it felt normal. I never felt on stiller coaster with him since he communicated so well.
Then he broke up I guess out of the blue. He needed to give 100% to his very little kids and work on his bettering himself during his change and the emotions life was throwing at him. Well at first it made sense and I was proud of his choice. I couldn't feel mad or sad. Disappointed though. The first week I was ok. Then I tried to get him to clarify are you going to call me at some point to talk about
this and what you are going through?
Then after trying to get an answer he defined it as over since I didn't respect the space thing he asked for even though it was not clear what he originally needed an end or a break. He said he was sorry he wasn't sure then what he needed. Now it is over. And I keep getting hit with this depression and nausea and lack of interest in food and friends and I just tune out. I went to the airplane museum with my family and tuned out. I feel he is making his life better and mine is falling apart.
I try to be strong deep mature and understanding that he is doing the right thing. But what about
me? And some days I check out. Came home got in bed and cried. Not feeling strong enough to do anything more than get by. I thought this was a different kind of relationship it was steady and clear. I trusted. Now I think dating is too much of a rollercoaster for a single mom with depression. I don't even know how to get the help I need I was told I had to wait a month to see a doctor. I hate dealing with doctor bills and insurance.
I gave your post paragraphs for easier reading. Thanks in advance for understanding.
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