hi there,I am sure you are a great mother to your son.
and yes you deserve him...have you talked to a doc about
how you feel ,if not you really should they can help!!I can only imagine how hard the holidays are on you ...The only advice I can give is see your doc about
and you can come here and lean on people here they are all great and wont turn you away
by the way welcome to hw
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.