When I worked for the Navy, I often rewrote papers for the young sailors. Curt, I hope you don't mind, but here is a rewrite of what you wrote to make it easier to read. If I didn't get it right, come back and correct me.
After a month of celexa, the doc took me off of it, because of side effects. He said my case was abnormal since I didn't have any of the expected good side effects. Instead of trying something else, he sent me to a specialist. My first appointment went okay, except they had to have my dad in there for the first bit of it. I thought that was kind of stupid. I guess it was because I'm still a couple months shy of 18.
Now I'm having trouble finding a job, because the speacialist is giving my information to co-workers, who wants to deal with me--that's the great way she put it. It's been a month since I saw my doctor and stopped taking meds, and 2 weeks since seeing my specialist. I'm going crazy. My girlfriend and I broke up, but we are back together and working out issues.
I shouldn't/can't be blamed for everything. It takes two people to have a problem, and the two people must share responsibility and admit personal faults and fix things up.
Last saturday was bad. I was at a friend's birthday party. We were all pretty drunk and my gf and her friend ended up in a huge fight that got physical. I played referree, and when that didn't work, I had to call the cops on the friend so they would take her home. It was not fun.
So that is a little about my life. Do you see any obvious topics that you think i should address with my specialist. You dont have to talk about understanding how i feel, just any thoughts, emotions or actions that you see, which I really need to adress with the specialist. Thanks,
My Answer: Curt I don't know anything about meds, but it seems odd to me that a doctor think you need them, prescribe, see that it didn't work and not replace it with something else. Either you needed that assist or not. My advise starts with finding a new doctor.
The counselor has a legal and moral obligation to keep your counseling private. So my second piece of advice, would be to confront the counselor to make sure of what you said in the post. I suppose it is possible for a counselor to request a release from you, to inform others, but you don't have to give permission--and if you somehow did that by accident, tell the counselor you withdraw it. However, I'm sort of guessing that maybe someone else who you told is passing the information. It's never a good idea to talk about counseling--to close friends at the beginning. If your counselor is talking, get a different counselor. Remember, you are paying, you have rights.
It sounds like your girlfriend wants to blame you, but that she's ornery enough to get in fights, while you keep a cool head and do the right thing. So if the girlfriend, wants to blame you for everything--listen to what she has to say, make adjustments--and if she doesn't change--just from getting her way--you might start thinking about finding someone who will appreciate your good qualities.
Now, about what is wrong with you. I really don't know. You don't say you have job problems--other than having trouble finding a job now. You don't say you have anger issues. You sound like a fine young man to me, who is having some difficulty finding a good place in life. At the same time, I know that sometimes there is a big secrets about past events--one or ones you know, but don't talk about to others, because it hurts too much. If that's the case, that is what you should talk about to the specialist--maybe not right away--but once you've made sure your secrets won't be revealed.
Rianna knows more about the treatment end of this, so keep in mind her thought that you a good anxiet/depression counselor might be of help. It sounds very right to me.