Yeah, it's like allowing yourself to chuckle at something. It doesn't happen for me often so when it does I try to hold onto it. I'm not really doing better today and just started a new medicine earlier this week, so i don't think it's kicking it yet. I know typical is a few weeks to fully feel anything.
It'd be awesome to be at the place where I am managing and functioning, it's taking forever.
I try to stay calm, process my thoughts. Separate emotions and what might be irrational, but it's awfully hard to always have to do this. But for now I guess I'm stuck with these thoughts. I know mindfulness and meditation helps but it's a repeat cycle for me once a new hour begins. I can't magically make myself enjoy the things I used to. I even get mad when hearing about
other people doing things. I get envious I suppose that. I just want to go back to feeling that way and enjoying life again.
Sorry this was a downer, it's just where I'm at right now.
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