All of my life growing up, I was always the last one picked. Now as an adult I am always the one who is picked on, blamed ect. I sometimes feel like the blacksheep of the family. Noone listens to me. For the most part it is just my dad and I here. My sister is married and lives out of state but comes home fairly often. We can all be in a group talking and I might say something and my dad takes his hand and moves it down as to say, quiet. I feel that I can never please anyone. I do have a group of 4 of us who do hang around together, but usually not all of us at the same time. I am usually the one who initiates anything, although sometimes someone else will. I want to know what is wrong with me? Why can't I feel important sometimes. This one friend in our little group is my best friend. She is alot of fun to be around most of the time but sometimes she will say things when I am down, or somewhat ignor it. She has this other friend who I have met. She usually does not hang around with us but does sometimes. Back in August I found out she pretty much hated me. For what I don't know. I did not like her much either but decided to take the high road and tell my friend to invite this friend with us. After she was around me a few times I think she saw what type of person I really was. I have always been nice to her. A few weeks ago, one of her dogs died unexpectedly. Being a huge dog lover, and after having gone thru the loss of my dog last Jan. I knew what all the sympathy cards that I got, meant to me so I got one and sent it to her. She emailed me and thanked me and said she thought that was very nice of me to think of her at that time. Well, it is getting close to New Years Eve. One or two of my friends get together and go out and eat and then drive around looking at the lights. That is what I planned on doing this year too. Well, my friends friend is having a party which was fine with me, I didn't care. Well last night I found out the other two girls in our group have been invited but I have not. Now I have to sit home New Years Eve. I am not a drinker at all and while I dont know for sure if I would have gone, it would have been nice to be invited. I may have gone. This is just another example of something being wrong with me because I have been left out. The other 2 gals have told me they had not made up their mind, but I am not stupid. They will most likely go but they don't want to hurt my feelings. I have brought NYE up in emails with both of them but not asking them to do something, but I wonder if I should send them each an email and tell them its ok to go, just so they wont try to hide it so I dont feel bad.