The wonderful thing about therapy is the break through.
Today you reached out for answers Good. Discuss it. You are not completely blowing off what you know will help you.
What I THINK you are doing is.
Using old survival skills for familiar emotions. DREAD, WORRY, FAILURE, HURT,PAIN ETC.
All of these most likely are in at least, your subconscious mind when you contemplate doing the hard work of therapy.
I won't lie to you. The Work is hard. It brings up painful crap, THEN as you continue to press forward, you realize the pain is dissipating.
That pain held down so deep for so long needs to be freed, so you can heal and the TRUTH will carry you the rest of the way.
1st step is the hardest. Breaking old habits is hard.
Giving yourself the kindness and compassion you deserve easier than you would think.
Peace and strength
Moderator - Depression
"...when the gift of sight is cause enough for jubilation."
Billy Collins from the poem. HIGH
DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain;Hemicrania Continua; raynauds;complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder;