Wow your comments are very enlightening and I read advice in each one of them. I reel reassured every day that I did the right thing by applying to school. I need to do what is good for me and not whats good for Melanie. We should each be thinking about
ourselves and I think that's been a long time coming.
In terms of what life was like 6 months ago... It's been difficult but nothing extreme. We were talking about
having a baby and that was taking up a lot of the conversation for a couple months. We did ask 2 donors and thats where its been left. I think it will stay there too until a few years down the road. My heart is just not in it anymore, too many doubts.
But we always made a great team. We could do anything we put our minds to and we truly motivated each other. We finished the basement of the apartment we received and we even got chickens and made a coop indoors. It was fun until it wasnt, haha. We always supported each other.
Today has been better though. She stopped me yesterday and asked me to talk to her, so I did. She asked if I was really going to school and I said well I applied, it's something I can still think about
. She kept pushing saying "well then you're leaving. Should I get my lawyer to draw up divorce papers" and this makes me feel like she really does want me to leave. But today I can tell were listening better. I listen to her say she feels no compassion from me and she listens and says "if all you want is to move back in, then maybe I can meet you half-way. Just wait until the end of March for our therapy session" and I said okay.
So I'm feeling like there's hope. Anyways thanks for all your advice