I've sort of disappeared from the forum, and I wanted to let you all know the reason. My depression, anxiety and agoraphia became overwhelming (as I'm sure you know from my previous posts). I've taken medication for years, but never did therapy. I made an appointment and went (yes, I got out of the apartment) to the hospital for a psych assessment. They have a very good mental health program there.
When I went I didn't know if I would have to be an inpatient or do their day program. Luckily they assessed me and I am now doing their day program. I go every day from 8:30 a to 3:30 p, and the therapists and everyone there is really kind and wonderful. We do group therapy, individual therapy; they have a recreational therapist to help structure and schedule you daily life; a dose of spiritualtiy, and also starting you on an exercise program, eating regularly and healthy, etc.
The amazing thing is I have gotten up, fixed my self all up, and have been able to go there 3 days in a row. I can't remember when I was out of the house two days in a row, much less 3 days!
It's a short term program; but I already have an appointment scheduled to start with a therapist, and I know it will be tough going through all the gunk I have kept inside for so many years. I have always just taken medications without therapy. I feel very positive I have taken the steps to get the help I really need. I still haven't decided about Christmas, but I think by the end of the week, I will know what to do.
Wish me luck!