my current situation is this,
decompress, not involve myself in drama unless totally required to. let people make their decisions and beds. to not be the continual family white knight, although i have 1 more charitable thing that must be done; the old place has turned into a jungle. 700 dollar quotes to get the grass down!!! i have a weed whaker with metal blade, sis will take it down in car when she picks mum up next week, and will go and weed whack the joint, on a cooler day.
looks like bro, the one at the old house is getting a gaurdian, i think they want him in some transitional development housing, but mum being a hard head. oh well. megs and i have pulled so many strings for them too that we are now done. i will ready my spare room, but i need mum to get her housing, for everything is in here, including a lot of sis's stuff. she had to do this to accomodate mum.
housing came around, i barked at them about
a few very pertinant things, met new worker. am back on abilify, shrink and i think it good. was doing 5morn and nocte, but now doing 10mg in the morning and will use 5mg nocte if required. been slowly getting back into some meditation, and some poetry. put some on the forum. i started playing slots, just free ones, but when i bought a few rounds of money, which was really a piss in the wind, i realized i was being tempted and uninstalled it. i see my gambling counsellor in a couple of weeks.
i have been busy, even though in pain. i am seriously considering a electric scooter, not cheap, but i think it will actual be a blessing. i have done a lot of anecdotal and professional research and spoke with many professionals regarding the matter. i might have some project work at the hospital, we'll see, and maybe a couple more uni gigs down the track.
i am working hard on my diabetes with my new gp. he is very proactive, but not with pain. it is a dirty word now. i don't know how long i will be around hw. we'll see. makes my heart sink with slow forums and such. well, i am somewhat stable, chaotic some, but that is me. mum is still a medical mess, sis is doin' it tough, however receiving support, and sis comes from canada next month to see us and mum i guess.
be good. luv 2 ya all.