Welcome to the forum.
It is natural to feel apprehensive and fearful at this time of your life.
I would suggest talking to your family doctor, school nurse. Getting a referral for therapy to help you through this.
Have you spoken to a career counselor at school about what you want to do? What you are interested in?
If you can figure it out, you can do a 2 year bachelors degree, say for business or accounting, at a community college. Then once you have a better hold on things you can move forward. Doing the BD at community college, you can take 1-3 course at a time, do summer courses, take 3 yrs if you have to.
There is no rule saying it has to be done in 2 years. You can get part time job and pay for the courses as you take them. I did this when I was 36. I suggest you do not wait the long!
We are here to support and listen. There is a thread at the top of the forum. Resources.
Take some time and review the pages. Lots of phone numbers, links and other great stuff to set you in the right direction.
Peace and strength
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"...when the gift of sight is cause enough for jubilation."
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